I had a plan. I wrote an essay called My Last Summer with Breasts and posted it on my Facebook page, and was going to continue to write about the process of accepting the fact that in the fall, I was having a bilateral mastectomy with no reconstruction. The first…

For obvious reasons, I’ve been thinking about taking things for granted. Or maybe they aren’t so obvious. Half the country is currently vaccinated against a deadly disease, the other half is turning their back on the solution. We recently drove down to Portland and had some of my favorite things…

My girlfriend bought me a wrap dress this week, and trying it on my first thought was: this will look better on me after the mastectomy.

It’s a beautiful dress; one that she found at a discount store for $100 less than the sticker price. It was the first time…

Most days I stand in front of the mirror and look at myself sideways. Sometimes naked, out of the shower, sometimes clothed. I look at my wide shoulders, the butt someone told me to be embarrassed about but has always attracted people, my stomach that bulges since my abdominal surgery…

Originally published on the Lunch Ticket blog.

I’ve always loved the ocean. When I was a child my family visited friends on the Jersey shore in the summers. We spent most of that time on a small stretch of beach a few blocks from the summer home the friends all…

(A child points the toward the water).

It was the middle of the day on a Friday when the breast cancer nurse called. I’d forgotten she was going to follow up; two weeks before I’d spent a really uncomfortable hour in an MRI machine where they took biopsies of both breasts and then scanned them. A lovely…

At some point, your doctor will look at the clock — usually it’s right when you are feeling desperate. It’s because they don’t have answers. Or because they’re an ass. Despite what any doctor says, there are times when they hope you will disappear. You are probably a woman. If…

At some point, your doctor will look at the clock — just when you are feeling desperate. It’s because they don’t have answers. Or because they’re an ass. Despite what any doctor says, there are times when they hope you will disappear. You are probably a woman. If they wish…

emma margraf

Emma lives in the country with her girlfriend and 9 pets. She can be found on Twitter @emargraf.

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